Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

September 7, 2016

  Okay, let's get the formalities out of the way.  I was 295 lbs this morning.  It's only two pounds difference and less that 1% change so I'm not getting my feathers ruffled about it.  That being said, it would have been nice to see it go down instead of up.
  Why did it go up?  Well, I haven't been paying attention to what I'm eating so that's the biggest factor.  As I type this, I have to be honest, I'm not sure I'm too worried about it right now.  So, there you go.
  Another reason for the increase is the walking.  I've been walking the dog again for three weeks now.  I haven't regularly done that since December or January.  I've been walking 1.2 miles at least four times a week.  I was surprised at how easily the walking was to pick back up.  It was like riding a bike--pun intended... and no, I'm not riding a bike.  You can forget that.
  Anyway, the first couple days, we went around the block, which is about .3 miles.  On the third day, I went farther (1.2 miles) and it didn't kill me.  Yeah! A point in the win column.
  So, on Monday, I decided pushing it would be a good idea.  Why did I think that?  We'll never know.  Anyway, I went 3.5 miles.  When I was done, I was sore, but I felt good.  I thought, yeah, I can do that again. 
  As the day wore on, however, my body objected more and more.  I felt like I was 80 years old when I went to bed at eight-thirty that night--I normally go to bed at eleven. 
  Yesterday, my body was screaming at me.  I still took the dog for 1.4 miles, mostly because I've accomplished this much and I know if I let myself have one day because I'm hurting, then I'll let myself have two, etc. etc. etc. (I watched the King and I this weekend, if you can't tell).  Today, I went 1.7, mostly for the same reasons.  I've been trying to wrap my brain around increasing the distance/stamina or something like that, which is why I went a little bit more today.  My joints didn't like it but we went anyway.
  How in the heck did I play basketball when I was teenager?  It was never this hard!
  So, the extra couple pounds are muscle.  Got to be.  That's what I'm telling myself, at least.  The aches and pains tell me it's got to be muscle.  Putting on fat doesn't hurt... unless you consider having TB (Tired Butt) from sitting in front of the T.V. all day.
  The biggest bonus is the lack of Dt. Dr. Pepper.  I haven't had one in almost four weeks.  I haven't had any (soda) pop in almost four weeks.  I'm pretty proud of that fact.
  Maybe soon, I'll start focusing on my eating... when I get there.  Baby steps, people.  Baby steps.
  I'll check in with you next week!

Saturday, October 17, 2015

34 Week Update October 17, 2015



Alrighty then!!  I am actually on time this month.  HIGH FIVE!!

This month has seen some changes.  The kids going back to school in August allowed the family to get back onto a schedule.  I was in a position where I needed to get a menu planned and a schedule for grocery shopping re-established.  It was good stuff. 

In there, somewhere, I got back into the habit of walking in the dog...almost daily.  I think I wound up walking her an average of four times a week.  Back in the middle of July, I had made it up up 1.5 miles a day with her.  But, since it had been more than a month since we had been regular about walking, I started again with .5 miles.  By the beginning of October, we were up to .75 and now we're averaging about a mile.

However, I started working a full time job at the beginning of October as well.  That threw a HUGH wrench into everything and I'm still trying to get everything figured out.  I remember now why I hate doing my grocery shopping on Saturdays.  My schedule is now crazy, but I'll talk more about that in a minute.

The other biggest change is that last week, October 10, I joined Curves.  I LOVE IT.  I don't like the working out, per se, but it love it there.  The women are so encouraging.  If I happen to miss two days in a row, they call me to find out what's up.  There's this awesome jungle-gym type thing you use to stretch after you work out and I look forward to just doing that.  And, even though I hate to admit it, I can see a change.

The biggest change seems to be my energy level.  I'm awake, most of the day.  I do still grab some caffeine halfway through the day, but I think that's more because I'm bored at my job more than anything  (I sit at a desk all day and answer phones...ALL DAY.....  It's a job, right?).    On Thursday, I woke up and I just couldn't do it.  I had gone every morning this week.  But Thursday, it wasn't happening.  So, I slept in.  Yeah, buddy.  I was tired all day.  You would think working out in the morning would make you tired and sore all day, but it hasn't.

So this is my day:
     4:45 - wake up, pray and get dressed
     5:00 - walk the dog
     5:30 - grab something to eat (usually some grapes, cheese and some breakfast meat - about 200 calories) and throw the kids' lunches together that had been made the night before
     5:35 - with Steph in tow, head down the hill to pick up a couple kids and take them to early morning seminary
     5:55 - drop those kids off
     6:00 - at Curves, working out
     6:40 - get home and make sure the boys are up, take a shower
     7:00 - read scriptures with the boys
     7:20 - send the boys out the door and get my own lunch ready, have something else to eat (one piece of toast and a banana 220 calories)
     7:30 - finish getting ready for work
     8:20 - out the door for work
     9:00 - start work
    11:00 - first break have a snack, this last week was carrots and celery 24 calories
      1:00 - lunch - last week was homemade chipotle three days (450 calories), homemade chef's salad (350 calories) and Friday I had sushi (Which I didn't think I would like but I do.....have no idea how many calories that was). [Okay, I just looked it up.  I had New York Crunch, which is the only one I've dared to try.  There was a serving and a half in the container, 600 calories.  Not too bad, I don't think.]
     3:30 - last break, more grapes and cheese - 155 calories
     5:30 - out the door!  Have an apple on the way home - 120 calories
     6:10 - get home...need to make supper....I won't go into that.
     7:30 - I'm dead by now but there's still things to do....cleaning up, getting kids into showers, making sure homework and chores are done, getting lunches fixed for the next day, making sure each kid has gotten their laundry done for the assigned days, making sure my husband is still alive.....
    8:15 - family prayer
    8:30 - praying with husband, reading scriptures with him
    9:00 - Tyson's snoring and I'm surfing the internet
   10:30 - usually out by now, but if not, I'm forcing myself off the net and closing my eyes.


At Curves last week, they measured me, weighed me and figured my body mass ratios.
I just got up and looked for it and it's not readily available.  Seeing as how the hour is getting late and everybody else is asleep, I'm going to risk putting it in later.
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I don't see much difference between this month and last.  I could this morning, but not now.  You can see that I finally put up my curtains in the background.  :)

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Update April 1, 2015

Hello all.


I haven't written in a couple days.  Sorry about that.  My mother-in-law and two nieces were here.  We've been very busy.


Monday we finally signed the closing documents.  In California, however, you don't get your keys right away.  It can be up to 72 hours afterwards.  In our case, we got our keys at 5:15 last night.  We were working until midnight to get everything moved.  Fortunately, lots of people from our church showed up to help us. If they hadn't, we would have been still moving today.


My mother-in-law, nieces and my granddaughter, Ryleigh, all climbed in the van and left for Salt Lake today.  I'm not built for toddlers anymore.  I've been exhausted having her around.  However, I know I'll miss her.  I was bawling today as she left.  :'(


After they left, Stephi and I went over to the old house and started cleaning.  My mother-in-law and a friend from church had already done a lot of the kitchen work.  I am so thankful for their help.  However, we focused on the carpeted areas of the house so the carpet cleaners could get their work done tomorrow.  Tyson was in and out, taking a load over, running errands like going to the post office, etc.  He finally joined us all the time about 4:30.  We cleaned until 8:00.  We met the goal of getting all the bedrooms, bathrooms, laundry room and hallway completed.  We even did the windows.  Ack.


That leaves the refrigerator, oven, counters, dishwasher, mantle and hearth, three more windows and waxing the kitchen, dining room and living room.  I think we can get it done while the carpet cleaners are there.


Another NaNoWriMo started today.  There's a competition on the internet.  To join, you must be willing to write a 50,000 word novel in a month.  The main one is in November.  There are secondary ones in April and July.  I enjoyed this last one in November so much, I wanted to do another one.  These secondary ones allow you to set your own monthly word count.  I stepped mine up to 60,000.  I didn't get anything done today so I'm already behind!!  Tomorrow doesn't look good either.  I guess we'll see how the day shapes up.  It's better to stay on top of it instead of falling behind.


Well, my diet has gone back to old habits.  I've been drinking a lot of pop, eating more sugary things, and just eating more in general.  Eating is how I handle stress.  Now that the moving stress is almost over, perhaps I can get back on track.


Let's see what tomorrow brings.


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Saturday, March 28, 2015

Update March 28, 2015

Good evening!

Today has been a wonderful day.  My headache went away after I rested last night.  I've been very tense about the house/loan situation.  After learning we could move forward, I relaxed quite a bit.  My head and neck ached last night so I took plenty of ibuprofen and laid on the hot pad for a while.  That seemed to help.  Sleep did too.


My mother-in-law came today with my two nieces.  It's been a nice visit.  She took us out to dinner tonight to Olive Garden for my birthday.


Therefore, I am not counting my calories tonight.  It would be outrageous.


See you tomorrow!

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Friday, March 27, 2015

Update March 27, 2015

Today was a roller coaster.  But it wound up being a good day.  Lots of packing done and the LOAN WENT THROUGH.  We're done with "It has to go back through underwriting.  It will be at least another five days."  HOOOOOORAY!!  We will sign Monday or Tuesday and move probably later that day.


5:45 - two pieces of turkey and a string cheese stick - 180 cal
7:15 - two chocolate chip cookies a friend made me for my birthday - 312 cal
11:45 - two of my burritos - 726 cal
4:00 - a string cheese stick - 80 cal
7:00 - two pieces of stuffed chicken, bacon pizza (two pizzas one on top of the other) - 730 calories
1 20 oz diet Dr. Pepper and 1 12 oz diet Pepsi
48 ozs of water
total calories for the day - 2028 cal

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Update March 25, 2015

I didn't update yesterday because I failed miserably.


Today I did well.  I'm still very frustrated with the loan situation.  Waiting is difficult.  Buying a house is emotional.


5:30 - two pieces of turkey and a cheese stick - 180 cal
1:30 - two of my burritos and a 12 oz diet Pepsi- 726 cal
7:30 - two burritos with chicken chili, cheese, sour cream and guacamole and a 12 oz diet Dr. Pepper - 522 cal
Total calories for the day - 1428!!  SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?
Total water for day - 48 ozs


I was busy today.  A friend from church came over and helped me pack up the kitchen.  I laid Ryleigh down for a nap late, at 1:45 and I slept until 3:00.  Then we went to Stephi's swim meet.  I guess I didn't give myself time to think about eating.


Interesting.


See you tomorrow.
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Friday, March 20, 2015

Update March 20, 2015

6:00 - two pieces of turkey and a piece of cheese - 180
11:30 - two of my burritos and a 12 pz diet Pepsi - 726
6:30 - beef and bean nachos (940 cal), 1/3 cup of my fruit salad (47 cal) and a 12 oz diet Dr Pepper
44 ozs of water
Total calories today - 1893

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Update March 19, 2015

Today was a good and busy day.  I'm tired.


I got up at five, well, five thirty and helped Tyson get lunches and breakfast ready.  Took the kids to school, etc.  Went to the Family History Center at ten and got a lot done.  Left at one to get Steph.  Took her to swimming and went home.  Came around the corner and saw the dog was out of the back yard.  Drove home instead of the neighbor's, where Ryleigh was.  Grabbed the leash and then grabbed the dog.  WALKED to the neighbor's to get Ryleigh.  Walked back home.  Laid down with her for 20 minutes.  Felt a kidney stone forming so stopped and picked up a can of green tea (prob why I felt like crap yesterday).  Drove by the new house, the termite repairs seem to be complete.  Went to the pool where Steph was and watched the intra squad meet and soaked up some Vite-a-minnn Deeee.  That felt really good.  Went to store and bought some more fruit and some hot dogs and polish dogs.  Was really hungry for most of the day.  The cheese puffs I bought earlier today didn't taste good.  I think I'm done with them. 


6:00 - Two pieces of turkey and a piece of cheese - 180 cal
9:30 - 1/2 bag of cheetos and a diet Dr. Pepper - 212 cal
1:00 - other 1/2 of bag of cheetos - 212 cal
1:30 - 1/4 of Steph's chocolate bar - 65 cal
2:00 - two string cheese sticks - 160 cal
3:00 - Taco hamburger burrito - 440 cal
3:30 - can of green tea - 210 cal
6:30 - Two polish dogs without bun (320 cal), 1/4 cup of my fruit salad (81 cal), 1/4 cup of r,w and bberry salad (35 cal) and 1 cup of spinach/romaine (16 cal) - 452 cal
11:15 - two pieces of turkey and a string cheese stick - 180 cal
Total water for day 32 ozs
Total calories for day 2111


Not too bad, I guess.  See you tomorrow.
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Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Update March 17, 2015

   This is yesterday's journal.  I got myself caught up on Facebook last night and didn't get to it. :)


    I had a good day yesterday, but I didn't feel well.  I was extremely tired.  I think I have this figured out and I'll talk about it at a later date.


    5:15 - two pieces of ham and a piece of cheese 240 cal
  11:30 - two beef, bean and cheese burritos with spinach/lettuce, sour cream and guac, 12 oz diet Pepsi (0 cal) 800 cal
    4:00 - two string cheese sticks - 160 cal
    6:30 - 2/3 cup chicken chili (106 cal), two tortillas (188 cal), sour cream and guac (98 cal), lettuce (20 cal), 1/3 cup red, white and blueberry fruit salad (47 cal), and 1/3 cup last night's fruit salad (71 cal) total meal 530 cal
    64 ozs water total
    Total calories for day = 1730.  Wow.  I did pretty good.   


    No exercise, a moderate amount of little jobs around the house done.  That was Tuesday.

Recipe - Chicken Chili

This was our main course last night.  I love this recipe.  It is easy to remember and assemble.  It's easily doubled.  It's thrown in the crockpot to cook all day.  It has the approval of both the husband AND the kids.  (I'll add a picture next time I make it.)  For my friends in Laramie who requested this recipe, here you go!

1 pound of FROZEN chicken breast (426 cal)
1 pound of FROZEN corn (367 cal)
1 15 oz can of black beans (110 cal)
1 3 oz package cream cheese (298 cal)
1 pint medium salsa (or whichever sizzle you choose) (80 cal)

Combine in a crock pot.  Cook on high 3-4 hours, low 6-8 hours.  Remove chicken and shred.  Return to pot.  Serve alone, over rice or in a tortilla.  Garnish as desired.  Makes two quarts or 8 - 12 servings. Total calories 1281 or 106 - 160 cal per serving.

As my husband would say, "This is TASTY."

Recipe - Fruit Salad

In the spirit of adding more fruits and vegetables to our diet, I made this last night for supper.  It is a really good fruit salad.  When you see the calorie total at the end, you'll see why.


2 small (or one large) red delicious apples (128 cal)
2 small (or one large) granny smith apples (126 cal)
2 bartlet pears (162 cal)
1 medium orange (90 cal)
1 banana (121 cal)
1/2 cup mayo (458 cal)
1/4 cup sugar (194 cal)
2 tsp lemon juice (6 cal)
Cut fruit into bite size pieces.  Place in bowl and add lemon juice.  Toss.  Make sure fruit is well covered to prevent browning.  Mix mayo and sugar together to make dressing.  Pour over salad and mix.  Can be served right away or chilled for two hours.  It is actually better after sitting for a little bit.  Makes 6 cups or 12 servings.  1285 total calories, 107 calories per serving.  (Not as bad as I thought it would be.)

My grandmother made this salad.  When I became a mother and desired to make this, I asked around for the recipe.  No one had it.  The only response I got for amounts was "enough".  Actually, that's how I cook a lot.

Until last night, I had never measured the mayo and sugar before.  I had always added "enough".  Last night when I made it, I used a cup of mayo and 1/2 cup of sugar.  It was too much, almost by double.  So the salad I made last night had 1937 total calories or 162 cal per serving.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Update March 16, 2015

    I had all these ideas to blog about tonight and then it took forever to get everyone to bed.  Therefore, I'm just doing an update and I'll blog about those ideas at a later date.

    Today was shopping day.  Family home evening was tonight.  It was a very busy day.

    This morning I was up at 5 am, as usual.  Well...5:15.  I did all my morning stuff, breakfast, kids' lunch, kids up and out the door, mom-taxi to school, etc.  I got two loads of laundry through by 8:00.  I laid down and snoozed while Ryleigh watched Strawberry Shortcake.  We left for shopping at 10:30.  We went to Home Depot, ate lunch at Taco Bell, went by the new house to see if the termite repairs were started, went to the car wash, went to Sam's (I did NOT indulge), got gas, picked up Steph and took her to swimming, went to the other grocery store and got home at 4:00.  Tyson actually beat me home.  I laid down with him for twenty minutes or so and then fixed supper.  I gave Ryleigh a quick bath.  We did family home evening.  Tonight we talked about temptation.  Pretty ironic topic in my life right now.  Ryleigh skyped with Becca and Bryan.  The children got rowdy.  We did our end of the evening rituals and Tyson and I finally got to bed around 10:00.

My intake today:
5:30 Two pieces of ham and a piece of cheese - 240
11:00  Two soft shell supreme tacos and 32 oz DIET Pepsi - 440
12:30  Finished off the third taco from my meal - 220
3:30 1/2 cup strawberry yogurt, 1/4 cup granola, 1/8 cup blueberries - 200
6:15 Two servings of spaghetti with meat sauce (700), 1 1/2 cup spinach and romaine salad with two tablespoons of ranch (salad = 24 ranch = 140, total = 164), one cup of red, white and blueberry salad (~140 calories per cup - I had 3/4 cup = 105)  (recipe here)  total calories for supper - 969
Uh....8:00 post FHE snack - two small, very chocolaty brownies - 448
Water for the day: 52 ozs
Total calories for the day = 2517

SOOOOOOO........ I did really well, until supper.  Two servings of spaghetti killed me.  And then the brownies definitely didn't help, not to mention they were after 6:30.  Actually, if I hadn't indulged in the brownies, I would've been under 2200.   Hmm.

That was my day.  Talk to you tomorrow.
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Saturday, March 14, 2015

It's been four weeks

    It's been four weeks since I've started this adventure.  I've learned a lot about myself and my eating habits.  I've worked at it.  I've changed some things.  I've definitely struggled.  I move forward two steps and step back one and a half, BUT there's forward progress.

    I estimate I've lowered my calories to about 2200 to 2500 per day.  It's about 500 to 1200 calories less than I was eating (see this blog and this blog).   I seem to handle that well without feeling like I'm starving.  I've gained some energy back.  I'm blogging regularly again (although I missed yesterday....it WAS Friday the 13th....  LMBO!)

    My rough idea in my head is to try and maintain at this calorie level for a couple weeks and then lower it again.  Of course, there's always the exercise  that I haven't even TRIED to fit into my day.  We are supposed to close on the new house on the 30th (We are trying to get it moved up).  The next couple weeks are going to be really busy.  I'm using that as an excuse to not start too many new things.

    I did finally speak to my friend who is the physical trainer.  She suggested this week I start adding in more fruits and veggies.  Okay.  I've heard of those......  8^/  We have an "appointment" to meet up on Tuesdays.  It'll be good.


March 14 2015
Feb 14, 2015
 
    So, this morning I weighed myself.  It said 305.  4 pounds, one per week.  Not bad, considering all the struggles I've been having.  And I doesn't feel as if I've really done anything.  So here's the pictures I took this morning (I tried to smile today):

    I don't see much difference (it's four pounds) and the pictures suck.  I may have to ask my hubby for help.

    More to come.  See you tomorrow.
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                                                channel.

Feb 14, 2015
 
March 14, 2015

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Update March 12, 2015

Today was a good day.

I did take a nap this morning.  I took my Benadryl late last night and I felt druggy this morning.  At ten, I headed to the Family History Center until one.  I stopped at 7-11 for my Diet Dr. Pepper and bag of cheesy puffcorn.  It didn't taste as good as it has in the past.

There was a Relief Society dinner tonight a church celebrating the birthday of the society.  There was taco salad and cupcakes.  I had seconds on the taco salad, but it was mostly protein.  I only had one cupcake.

No headaches today until now, really.  The puffcorn didn't stay in my stomach for long.  Big surprise there.  So I was hungry this afternoon until I got home.

It'll be four weeks this Saturday since I started this whole fiasco so I've decided I'm going to take pictures and post a monthly update then.

I need to call my friend tomorrow.  It's not the middle of the week anymore, but hopefully it'll still be good.  :)

See you tomorrow.
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Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Checking In March 10, 2015

Checking in.  I really haven't gotten a specific topic today.

I did fairly well today....well, now that I think about it....

5:15 - Two pieces of turkey and a piece of cheese
7:30 - 10:00 - snooze on the couch while Ryleigh watches My Little Pony
11:00 - go to store to finish shopping I didn't get done yesterday.  Think the entire time about maybe having enough left over to stop by Taco Bell.
12:00 - Load the car and leave disappointed because I didn't have enough extra money left over.  Now I have a headache and I'm starting to shake.
12:30 - Groceries are put away, Ryleigh is eating a PBJ and I am chowing down on 1 1/2 cups of ham, rice and cheese because, well, because I really wanted it.  And I wasn't patient enough to fix my burritos.
1:00 - tired now because of sugar low.  Still have headache.
3:15 - finally have a chance to lay down.  Lasts about 20 minutes until one of the kids wakes me up.
5:00 - Talk Tyson into cooking spaghetti while I pick up Stephi from swimming.  I DID NOT STOP AT 7-11!!  Still have a headache.
6:00 - Everybody eats spaghetti while I have chicken and beans on lettuce.  Was actually pretty good.  I'm still kinda full.

Tomorrow!
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Monday, March 9, 2015

What I've learned about my eating habits

   So the binge I've had this last week has made me really look at why I eat.  Sounds odd.  I should be eating because I'm hungry, right?  Nope.  Not me.
   I eat because:
      1.  I'm bored and I want something for my hands to do;
      2.  I'm passing Taco Bell;
      3.  The food I'm fixing at that moment is too delicious to pass up;
      4.  I'm passing Chipotle's;
      5.  It's the correct time of day to eat;
      6.  I'm passing McDonald's;
      7.  I'm in 7-11 and already purchasing the Dr. Pepper so I might as well purchase the bag
           of cheese puffcorn;
      8.  I'm passing the refrigerator;
      9.  It's Thursday;
    10.  It's Monday, I've been shopping all day and now I'm at Sam's and I'm passing the
           fast food counter at the front of the store.

   Anywhere in the above statements have you seen the phrase "Because I'm hungry."?

   I don't either.

   BECAUSE IT'S NOT THERE!!

   Now, you may think that I'm being facetious or dramatic.  Well, maybe I am a tad.  I don't stop every single time I pass Taco Bell, Chipotle or McDonald's.  But I do make a mental note to make sure I stop when I'm out and alone (feeding someone else who may be in the vehicle can become expensive).  Does that make me a closet binger?  Never heard of it, but I'm not tossing out possibilities.

   But, the majority of what I say above is correct.  I really never eat because I'm hungry.  Number 8 really frustrates me when I realize I opened the door just because I passed it.  And since I've gone through the trouble of opening the door, I might as well grab a snack, right? :/

   This phenomenon was really obvious when I was eating crap last week and I was full.  Literally, I was stuffed.  Like when you've had WAY too much at Thanksgiving.  AND I KEPT EATING IT.
   I guess that's reason number:
     11.  I can't waste the food.
  Oh! I almost forgot number:
     12.  I am doing something creative (with my hands even) and my creative energy is spent
            so I need to do something different with my hands and have a snack.

What did Charlie Brown say?

AAAUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!

Today's food:
5:15 - One piece of ham lunchmeat and a single slice of Colby Jack cheese
7:30 - A medium sized bowl of Cream of Wheat with a tablespoon of White Grape Jelly
12:30 - (my blood sugar is so low at this point, I'm shaking.  Why? Because I was shopping and forgot about my eat-something-small-every-three-hours-to-keep-your-blood-sugar-level snacks.)  One Sam's size piece of all-meat pizza (equivalent of two slices) and a 32 oz Full-HighFructoseCornSyrup Dr. Pepper.
5:30 - snacking on the ham, rice and cheese casserole I'm making for supper as I prepare it.  Why? Because I was at the doctor's office all afternoon with Ryan getting his unbroken arm cleared for PE again and I forgot about my eating schedule.  (If I made this sound like Ryan's fault, it's not.  It's mine.  Just frustrating.)  Man.  I'm going to have to start packing around a diaper bag again just so I can eat small snacks!
6:15 - Eating my chicken and bean tortillas while everybody else eats the ham rice and cheese.
6:35 - Stop eating for the night.
8:00 -  keep my hands busy doing dishes while everybody else eats ice cream. :/

AAAUUUGGGGHHHH!!

I have officially blogged today.  Tomorrow will be better.  Have a wonderful evening.  See you tomorrow.
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Sunday, March 8, 2015

Avoidance

    I've been avoiding blogging because it holds me accountable.  The last week I haven't been doing well at all.
    Well, maybe that's not totally true.  I do well during the day.  I keep track of my calories.  I stick the "diet" I've established.
    And then about 4:00 it all falls to pieces.  I crave sugar.  I crave caffeine.  I crave junk food.
    This week has been horrible for the diet.  Monday, I had a 32 oz fountain Dr. Pepper.  Tuesday, I stopped and got french fries from McDonald's.  Wednesday, I snorked down five of Steph's freshly baked chocolate chip cookies, not to mention sniping dough as she was making them.  Thursday, the piece de resistance, I had a double quarter pounder meal from McD's (I did restrain myself to a medium size and a DIET Dr. Pepper.  I am dieting, you know.)  At least four of the seven days I stopped and bought a 20 oz full-high-fructose-corn-syrup Dr. Pepper when I went to pick up Steph from swimming (a convenient excuse for the convenience store...).  On Friday, I gorged on squiggle.  And yesterday, I devoured TWO pieces of DOUBLE stack chicken and bacon pizza from Papa Murphy's (There were tomatoes on it....).                       

    And I only walked the poor dog once.

PTTTTHHHHHHH!!

    I suck.

    DIETING SUCKS.

    Changing behavior sucks more.

    So today, I spoke to a friend at church.  She's a physical trainer.  She told me I was trying to change TOO MUCH at once.  She suggested instead of jumping from 3000-3400 calories per day to 1500, try only going down to 2200, halfway-ish, and shoot for 1500 later.  Go ahead and have my Dr. Pepper, but make it diet and limit it to a certain amount per day.  (There's these nifty sizes they're selling here that are like 10 ozs and come in an 8 pack.)  Don't eat after 6 p.m. (Well, it'll have to be 6:30, we eat at 6.)  If I want to add walking the dog fine, but if I don't, don't sweat it, I can add that in next week.  She advised I only make one or two changes a week.  And don't forget to call her in the middle of the week.

    Okay.

    Oh, and she said to keep blogging.  Everyday.

    I'm not sure what I'm going to talk about everyday, but okay.  I will.

    Good things that happened this week as far as dieting:
        When I ate the double quarter pounder and medium fries, which I usually get with large fries, I was stuffed before I was done.  Same with the pizza.  I would normally eat three pieces.  So, my stomach must be shrinking.

    Okay.  New plan then.  I'll check back in tomorrow.
    Same Bat time, same Bat channel.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

I'm a waffle

    I'm a waffle.  I can't seem to commit to a 1500 calorie diet, or exercise for that matter.  I do good one day and the next, I'm giving in to every temptation I can find, cookies, Dr. Pepper, french fries.....
    I'm in a good place one day, and low the next.  A waffle.
    I have found a good meal that fills me up for about three hours (Please forgive the pictures, I'm still not good at taking pictures with my laptop.)
        I start with a flour tortilla:
               94 calories.
               I'm not concerned about anything else right
               now.







 I add a tablespoon of sour cream:
        26 calories, 120 total so far.
        I need taste.
       




                I add a tablespoon of guacamole:
                        23 calories, 143 total.
                        Again, I need taste.




I add 1/3 cup of shredded chicken breast with taco seasoning.  I cook 5 to 6 breasts in the crock pot along with 1/2 cup of water and one packet of taco seasoning.  The packet states there's about 20 calories in it.  There's about 20 to 24 servings from the pot of chicken.  I'm going to round up and say it adds 2 calories per 1/3 cup.
          82 calories, 225 total.
          The chicken is tasty.



I add 1/3 cup refried beans and 1/3 cup black beans.
        154 calories, 379 total.
        Tasty filler with protein.







I add 2 tablespoons of shredded Colby-Jack cheese.  I need cheese.
        55 calories, 434 total.
        I wish there could be more.





                        I top it off with lettuce (2 calories) and
                        two tablespoons of tomatoes.
                               6 calories, 440 total.
                               I need some veggies.




    So until I figure out some other lower calorie meals that I like, I'm eating this for lunch and dinner.  It's tasty and filling.  I've been having smaller versions of what the kids eat for breakfast.  In between, I'm eating a couple slices of turkey or ham and carrots or 1/2 cup of yogurt with 1/4 cup of granola in it (which isn't as bad as I thought it would be).  I don't know if I'm hitting the 1500 calorie mark or not.  I am certain I'm not hitting the 3400 calorie mark.  Unless...
    It's the in between times when I'm hungry that I hit the well of the waffle.  Or when I fix something for supper for everybody else and I really like it.  Or when Steph makes cookies (I had an impossible time passing up the dough).  I've been craving sugar...a lot.  There's many wells in my waffle.
    I guess I need to decide if I'm going to be a soggy waffle or a crispy one.  A waffle that won't soak up the hot, melted butter and sugary, maple syrup.





                                    Anyone want a waffle?

Reference

* Update 3/18/15 - I now split the chicken and beans into two portions and have two burritos.  I go slower since I have "more" and I feel "fuller" since it takes longer to eat.  726 calories






Thursday, February 19, 2015

Good Cook, Good Food...Bad for the Posterior

Good cook, good food

    My husband says I'm a good cook.  The kids agree.  Apparently my waistline agrees too.

    I think we can all agree that buying fresh produce is expensive.  In addition, the meats that are "better" for you are expensive as well.  The most affordable meat, in the past, has been ground beef, especially the kind that is higher in fat.  Lately, though (maybe it's California), I've noticed the price of chicken is comparable.
    Anyway, I have always spread my food budget out as much as possible.  I realize the majority of us do.  That being said, I seriously buy CHEAP.  When I first began my household, we were eating pastas and hamburger.
    We still do.  That's how I cook.  Over the past four or five years, I've started to incorporate other things, but hamburger and pasta is still the majority of what we eat.  And cheese, lots and lots of cheese.
Ref
    This is a very close representation of one of everyone's favorite dish.  This is baked goulash.  Of course, we don't call it that, it's called Squiggle at our house.
    Here's the short story explaining that, because we all need a diversion.
    When our third child, Stephanie, was about six, she approached me as I was making supper. 
    She asked, "What's for supper?"
    "Goulash," I replied as I was stirring the hamburger.
    She scrunched her nose and states, "I hate goulash."
    Later, when I placed the plate in front of her, she asked, "What is this?  Is this goulash?"
    "Uh, no," I lied.  "It's squiggle.  And you put cheese on it, like this."  And I plopped a pile of shredded cheese on it.  Well, all the kids loved the idea and that's how squiggle was born in our house.
    We have it about twice a month.  Spaghetti, we have about twice a month.  We have at least one other meal a week with pasta and at least one other per week with rice.
    We eat LOTS of carbs.

Ref
    They're cheap.
    And they're tasty.

    Well, since I've been paying attention to calories lately, I flipped the package over before I opened it.  HOLY COW.
    I got my calculator out again.  It's kinda bulky....
   So I figure one cup of this stuff is about 700 calories.  8-/
   Here's the thing, I dished myself up about a cup and a half (I was starving...I had a rough day sticking to the 1500 calories...we'll talk about that later...).  As I was eating it, I realized when we have had this in the past, I've had about four times the amount I was eating.  UHGG.

    The picture is becoming clearer.

    I'm going to have LARGE problems with portion control.

    AND I'm going to starve.