October 26, 2016

  I've done a good job this week at walking the dog.  On Monday, we went 2.3 miles at a 3 mph pace.  Now, that may not sound like a fast pace to many but for me, it is.  I had a good coating of sweat, my breathing and heart rates were both increased and I hurt!  I popped ibuprofen all day.
  Yesterday, my hips really ached so we only did .6 miles but still at the 3 mph pace.  While it wasn't as much as the day before, I still got my heart rate and sweat going.
  Today, I was exhausted.  I slept most of the morning.  No dog-walking today.
  Wednesday has turned into this huge mess of busy.  I have no idea why, but schools around here think Wednesday's the day to have activities.  This afternoon, I have my usual volunteering at the Family History library.  Devon has a football game at 3:30 and Ryan has a cross-country meet at 4:30.  Of course, there's church activities tonight as well.  It's a good thing there's leftovers in the fridge because I don't think cooking is going to happen tonight.
  Not really weighing myself everyday.  I did on Monday and I was 292.  That's where I seem to be.  I'm aiming for walking the dog a little bit tomorrow, I have to go to the grocery store and around here, it's always better to go before ten.  On Friday, I plan on doing at least 2 miles and on Saturday I'm hoping to do more, but not going to beat myself into the ground if I only get a little bit in.
  I'll check in on Saturday.

October 19, 2016

  Things have been going well since Saturday.
  I walked the dog 1.2 miles on Monday and 2.3 miles yesterday.  We didn't go today because a vet's appointment and other errands prevented it but one of the kids took her around the block, without asking even.
  I weighed myself yesterday and I was at 293.  I've been more hungry the last couple days.  I think it's because I'm pushing the walking a little more.  It's hard not to snack and take care of that feeling.
  Not much of an update.  I'll check in on Saturday.

October 15, 2016

  I walked the dog on Friday.  That's it.  It was 2.3 miles, but I didn't walk her on Thursday nor today.
  I'm having trouble setting into this commitment.  I can't explain it.  I look in the mirror and think, yeah, I need to loose some weight and then I walk away and it's gone.
  However, since I started doubling my walking distance, I've noticed some changes in how my pants fit.  This next week, I'm shooting for the goal of walking her everyday, be it 2.3 miles or 1.2.  I still have yet to accomplish that.
  Goals.... Hm...
  See you Wednesday.

  I have to be honest.  I didn't post at all last week because I was going to give up, throw in the towel, QUIT.  That's where I was.  I have so much going on right now that this wasn't something I wanted to devote my time to.
  And then I read a Facebook post of a friend.
  She went from 380 lbs. to 150 lbs.  That is amazing.  In her post, she stated that once she lost the first fifty pounds, everything was easier.
  I thought about that hard.
  Going to the grocery store will be easier.  Potentially, it won't take me a full day to recover.
  Doing active things with my children will be easier.  More of those to do.
  Climbing up into my stupid loft (my 'mancave') will be easier.  Maybe I won't have to have the kids get up there if all I need to do is get something.
  I can loose fifty pounds, right?
  ...hmmm.
  In the frame of mind I was last week, I didn't walk the dog most of the week.  Monday, it just didn't happen because I took two kids to the orthodontist and then all four to the dentist.  It was an all day affair.  Yesterday, I did a month's worth of grocery shopping.  I walked about three miles, but it wasn't with the dog.  Today, I was really sore.  My hips, knees and ankles hurt.  I was exhausted.  Tyson got up and got the kids out the door.  I rolled out of bed, finally, and the dog and I went 2.3 miles, aching the entire way.
  I thought the whole time, 'Why am I doing this?'
  I went home and took a shower and then I took a nap.  I also took some OTC pain meds.  :/
  So, it'll be easier, right?
  I'll be back on Saturday.  I promise.

October 1, 2015

  Well, I didn't walk the dog since Wednesday.  I weighed myself on Thursday, but that was the last day.  I'm not doing well in this weight loss thing.
  Today, I've been rolling a goal around in my head.  I have to desire to do any of this.  I know I need to lose weight, but I just don't want to put any effort into it.  I don't know what to do to get back into it, either.  So, I've been thinking about setting a small goal.

  275.

  Time?

  I dunno.  It's October 1st.  I have no idea how long this will take.  I'm thinking December 1st.  We'll go with that.

  Check in with on Wednesday.